this time i wOn't cuss


my life has been a series of
chaos and disillusionment and broken arrows.
i have wanted to find peace in you but everytime i do so,
you were unavailable.
or you seem to be.


you have been so far,,,


and i don't think i can stand it anymore if you will finally leave.
and be farther than ever that i would not be able to reach you.


i don't want you to be a star in the night sky
that i can only gaze upon.
i want you to be my sunshine that i could feel.


but if that shall happen,
i would find ways to reach for you and touch you.
i would not care if you burn me. i am willing to return to ash for you.


please. give me a chance. give us a chance.


i chose to stay for i still love you. i am still so in love with you.
that is the reason why i still want to go on. love.


i am willing to change for the better. i am willing to give up my old ways which made you feel bad about me. only if you can give me a chance.


i have immersed myself in a quagmire, thinking that it is solid ground. but i have been wrong. and only you could save me.

Rav De Castro
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